Play The Game

I’ve been going through a lot of changes lately, new class, new friends, some old friends are not friends anymore, remember the douche who I thought I liked? So, I had decided I did not like him and it was just a crush or whatever, well first week back at school, he comes and whispers “good morning” in my ear, good morning these words have never been more powerful to me before, i’ve always been one of those to not believe in words which often don’t hold any kind of meaning. I’m Brazilian so he obviously did not say exactly good morning, here we say “bom dia” which is basically the same thing but, well instead of good morning a good translation would be “good day” sounds a bit aussie doesn’t it? Anyway, he said that to me, in my ear, he never talks to me, but in that magical morning, he decided to tell me, whispering it to me, making sure only I would hear him, that he wanted my day to be good. Well, it was, indeed, it’d be hard for me to have a bad day after that.

As soon as he walked away I just looked at my friend and smiled, I don’t think i have ever smiled that much actually. However, he did not speak to me for the rest of the day, but that was enough for me to think he had given up on the girl he has liked for 3-4 years and had decided to give this poor girl a chance. How sweet of me to think people can change. Turns out he decided that, being the good outcast me and all the people I know are. he would to be little more extroverted, be open for more people, specially girls. Guess I was his first try at being, now on purpose, hot as fuck.

One of my best friends is also his best friend, I said this before, and she told me he had already asked two girls out. This made me go even further: why wasn’t I one of them? He knows I would do whatever he asked me to, if he was just looking for a girl, I would love to be that girl, any girl, i could be whoever he asked me to. Enough of my melodrama, I decided to get in his game. He wants someone who likes him, right? He is just looking for a girl who he can make fun of when he’s around his friends. Well; I’m sorry for him, but I’m an amazing actress, learned with my mother.

I realized that he’s got me right where he wants me to be, and that is not a place where he wants a desirable girl to be, well I’m not there anymore. He does these little things just to make me think I have a chance so, in the end, he’ll go out with a much hotter girl and all I did was give the self-confidence and the ego massage he needed. That’s exactly what I’m doing.

If he looks at me, I’ll blush, if he talks to me, I’ll stutter. if he says I like him or asks me or someone else asks me if I am desperately in love with him, I’ll laugh at them and show how good of a player I am.