Maybe.

        I need new friends. Right now, I have people with whom I talk, but no actual, real friends. Maybe it’s because I’m one of those people who are always changing, but not like “maturing”, I literally change every so often. Sometimes because of a new crush, sometimes just because that’s how life is for some people.

At this moment, I feel like being one of those people who have friends who take photos of them, like those indie alternative people we see on instagram. Maybe they never came to me because I don’t dresss well enough for them, maybe they could smell the High School Musical Soundtrack through my earphones, maybe I’m just not that approachable - that’s for sure.

Do you ever get the feeling that you’re not fitting into the life you once had anymore? As if nothing around you changed, but you did, and a lot, maybe too much. Here’s the deal, everyone changes all the time, I guess, I’ve just graduated, maybe that’s why I don’t like the life around me anymore. I just want to go out for nice places and do those things people do when they’re in nice places, but I sometimes feel like I’m not really the nice place kind.

Maybe that’s it, maybe my self-esteem is not nice-placey enough. Maybe I am creating too many words right now, who knows, maybe it’d be easier if I smoked. I always feel like life is easier for smokers, maybe that’s why they usually die first.

I don’t know how I can change my situation, maybe I should start thinking straight and not talking, or writing, about whatever comes to mind sometimes. Maybe something’s not right, maybe I’ll find my niche in university or whatever.