fuck you

Why don’t you like me anymore?

What have I done in these six months that was so monstrous

Disgusting enough to make your soul repel me endlessly

When you told me I was beautiful the first time 

I felt like for the first time I believed it

Now I wonder how you never seem to find anything else

[that’s good on me

For the tenth time you told me I was beautiful

When I felt evil inside me

From what you told me

The angst and rage that I felt for you make me sick

Am I a beautiful beast for you?

Why do you hate me enough

To make it seem like I am the one lighting a fire

I don’t know which one is worst

The fire I feel burning when you touch me

Or the fire I feel inside when you raise your voice

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