Love

You know that moment when you are done loving someone and you feel something about someone else but you don't know and then all of a sudden all your friends know it and they're trying to make him come over and talk to you? So… that`s exactly what`s happening to me.

One of my best friends has this best friend and… I have a lot of weird things to say about him. The first time I heard about him or whatever was when another friend of ours said he had a nice body during P.E. … I know right? Then, the second time i “interacted” with him was when I accidentally grabbed his butt while trying to steal his friend’s seat at a party. After that it all got worse, first of all that`s not the best way to know someone and specially someone who’s hot and intelligent and charming as fuck, besides that, i started getting closer to this friend and he started being nearby more often - though we didn’t really talk - and then, last night at a halloween party, he arrived early and so did I and then he was making a web and I was holding the thing in the air for him and suddenly I was daydreaming about, using the lack of space between us to i don’t know kiss me start a conversation while we are close though there’s a fucking web between us.

That’s when it hit me, I’m not even done with loving this other dude and already falling for my best friend’s best friend. I told my friend about it and another friend and another friend and ALMOST ALL MY FRIENDS I GUESS and they all said it was nice but I was so scared, because it feels so wrong when you fall for someone you know because you can’t really run away from them.

In the end, even i was impressed by my reaction: he tad my friend he wouldn’t date anyone else - she didn’t tell him who but she told him a friend liked him, because he liked this other girl. I felt so happy with that, he basically made a decision for me. I was scared as heck, specially because I’ve never kissed anyone and I know that I’ll never kiss if I keep on getting afraid of every possibility ever but I need to kiss someone before kissing anyone and I was confused, as always, and he was there and now I can’t stop thinking about him though I know nothing’s ever gonna happen because he likes someone else and the fact that he wants to wait her makes me want to be her and I really wish I was because she’s beautiful and as intelligent as hime, which I’m certainly not.