My Coincidence.

I did not want to write about you, because you were not that special. I didn’t even like you, I just liked the way you were there unexpectedly. You are not pretty and not even I find you pretty, we do not have the exact same tastes and I swore I would never fall for a guy who likes Anime. But the way you speak about movies, the way you describe your sexuality the way you see sex as a beautiful thing and not just physical. You made me fall in love with you and I blame you for that every time I try to talk but can only smile.

First you were just an acquaintance and I just thought you seemed nice, then you started doing things that I still cannot comprehend, and your hug full of bones filled me with butterflies every day. One week something happened and I was talking to you about my guy, the next week we were both absent, you were working, I was travelling. Then we came back full force.

You walked me to the subway just like my guy does when I have to leave, but he has to stay. You came after me because I was alone and so were you. I had nothing to do so why not have lunch with you, why not walk you to work, why not have our little secrets and subjects and keep talking about sex and love as if it were so far away from us, but still there.

I was missing you, I hadn’t seen you for two days when suddenly you were walking towards me, you ask me to go with you, I obviously agree. You tell me about your friend and everything’s fine, then you say you are going to college so there’s no reason to keep going there. You are not the first person I am losing this year, but you are definitely the hardest one.

When I thought you were leaving so soon after arriving, I find out you are going to the same college as my best friend, to the same party I am going next week, to the same places. My dad says something about energies and how sometimes the universe tries to keep two people together, my psychologist says to ditch my guy because I clearly see no future there.

You ask me whom do I love and I can only think “no one” but you are always there, you are not my love but you are all the good things in the universe colliding and form this one big ball of energy called winter. And who would’ve thought that we would begin to fall in spring and who knows, maybe all through this summer.