stripes.

Let’s start again. Let’s pretend you don’t feel insecure around me because you think I despise everything you do. Let’s forget that time I told you something nice and then said it was just a joke four days later. Let’s forget you were a douche and lost your chance with possibly the hottest girl at school. Let’s forget each other but keep each other’s number on speed dial just in case.

If this were to start right now, from the middle, we would be friends, talk every day, all day, you’d tell me I'm stupid and I’d tell you you're too rude and people would defend me and you’d tell them they don’t know me like you do and that’s why you are so bothered by my presence, but still calls me when I’m not there.

I can help you get with that girl you like, but you keep telling that dude I’m interested in is just too much of a jerk and I deserve better, you joke that I deserve someone like you and that you can get anything and anyone you want, it’s just that right now you don’t want anyone. Still we talk until I forget to wish you good night and end up falling asleep.

We could go out just as friends and then we could watch that movie with Edward Norton because you’re the only one who understands my admiration for him. Then we could keep talking and our friends would tell you we should be together just like they tell me, but little do they know we are both too weak and that would make us see each other differently.

Then we could try something and it’d be great because we both like national music and french films and we could dance around big avenues and have deep discussions about politics and prejudice that would inevitably end in just us. 

This would be possible but you are so fragile and vulnerable that you build this huge wall and I just can’t break through because I know I would break if I did or I’d just forget everything and break you and that is why we can only talk when we don’t look into each other’s eyes and when we say the opposite of what we mean. When we feel the opposite of what we need.