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 In the days I have options

I talk, I flirt, I see what I was missing

In the nights

You leave

You go with her, you dream of her

I never thought I would be the only one

I just wanted to be an option

I trusted you not to break my heart

that’s how I found out I couldn’t trust you

Now we trust each other to stay apart

I know I can have you even if you don’t

I will never not be too much for you

And I will never not be beautiful in your eyes

You write to her in the computer I gave you

You take her to the restaurant I showed you

You share with her the opinions I formed in you

She looks like me, but older, uglier, thinner

She sounds like me but duller, simpler, girlier

You will never be free of me

Tonight I finished the wine I started when I got over you

How can I get over if you’re still here?

After drinking the wine, I unsent all my messages

You don’t get my friendship until I get your respect

I don’t know what could hurt me most

To think that I lost you

Or to know that you lost me

Do you even think about me every time I reappear?

Did you tell her who was that in the photo you shared with her?

Does she know you are only a product of the memories I made in you?

You say you have been listening to Tyler the creator

And it reminds you of her

The same songs you said reminded you of me

I must tell you then

There are no flowers for you, scum fuck.

I just wanted to tell you, friend, that the guy I like told his friends about me.